21 October 2008
I was due to go back to camp for Wargame Exercise in the evening. You jumped with joy when you saw that I was still around after you returned from Montessori, which is an exception during weekdays.
You literally "jumped" and hit mommy's jaw when she was lowering you down as she carried you home. She was very angry at your action of jumping because this had happened before and she had told you not to do that many times. She spanked your buttocks and not wanting to talk to you. Of course, you started to cry...
Nevertheless, I spent time consoling you, feeding you and playing with you. Not before long, it was time for me to leave. I know that you did not want me to go but wanted my company, believe daddy, I had the same feelings and yearnings to be with you.
Your actions and words; "Daddy, can I hold your hand?", "Daddy, can I sit on your lap?", "Daddy, after this show then you go, ok?", "Daddy, I hold this for you, ok?", "Daddy, I will paint when you go, ok?", etc...
I knew and was really proud that you controlled yourself and your behaviour so well, despite the struggles which I could sense brewing internally within you. You said "Bye bye" so loud that I could hear your feelings and not the words said.
When you broke into a cry just after I stepped out of the house, my heart melted with you. While I felt unbearable to leave you like that, on the other hand, I was very contented and glad that you had grown to be stronger and more matured. It was a mighty feat to be achieved by a 3 year-old.
My dear Xiao Zhuang, I can never say enough, I love you.
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